I'm bipolar 2 and I have hypomania moments. I've only had times of mania when someone died and someone I loved broke up with me. I loved him and when he left me, I felt it was the result of me and my behavior. I'm not suspicious of people, but I feel worn down and need time to relax. Once I get worn down and tired, I'm not in the mood to talk. If people continue to talk to me, I feel annoyed by them being in the room. Once they leave feeling hurt, I feel horrible and cry. I can only process so much in one day and with my mind racing, I feel so tired and sleep. My mind racing is what drives me crazy and I'll over analyze things to the point I'll feel frustrated. Don't deal with anxiety unless I'm stressed out. Many people think I'm sad when I'm actually in a good mood. Sometimes I just daydream to get relief from things bothering me. I'll think of funny scenes from movies and cartoons. Often times I get that weird look from people but I pretty much ignore it now. I'll just giggle from things I think about and it's usually something funny. One thing I know what I have to control is when I do get mad and thankfully it doesn't happen a lot. Do feel shy around others though cause I guess I'm not sure what to say, lol. I've been picking up on my moods and it's weird but anytime it happens, I think to myself, ok this feels familiar. It's as if I'm picking up on my own moods and how I'll react. My mother says I exhaust her by talking on and on.. so now I've been venting in my journal and I'll jump from one topic to the next, lol.