Bipolar type 1 and I'm 32 years old. I started off with a manic episode while away to England for a Wedding in 2009. Manic sever for 4 months then bang into a depression for 7 months before I got diagnosed. Was diagnosed very quickly. Had a one night stand which I would never do normally. Tried to but a one way ticket to America. Psychosis. Sever depression. Suicidal thoughts and feelings. Wrote a suicide note. Attempted suicide 4 times.

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Depakote 50mg twice a day 2010

Aririprazole 15mg in the morning 2017

Serequol PRN 2011

Was on Serequol XR and Serequol normal but came off them to go onto Aririprazole.

3. I was med compliant for all of 2016 and half of 2017. Then I thought I could do it alone wasn't bipolar anymore. So was stable but am now on meds for 3 weeks now. I'll never get over this illness to become stable or be in remission or whatever. My mania/depression makes me feel like I'm not bipolar and I can't seem to find peace within myself. I suffer from depression, hypomania, mania and psychosis. Bring rejected from professionals definitely affects my recovery.

4. Life has changed for me as I have went from having a full time well paid job to living on benefits with no job. No one wants to hire me.

Life pre med was hectic but mostly fun. Minus the depression which I covered up with over working and alcohol life was sweet. The mania made life bearable.

Post treatment I'm lonely with no job and very few friends. I'm in a rut with myself and my life. Then there is the dignity that has escaped me. The professionals have been great but I ruin things with my ways. I feel like my life has no meaning but I'm having to brave face it all the time and lie to get through the day. I worry about life like I never use to. My anxieties are sky high and I now have to work with social anxieties along with general anxieties every day