Maybe ten or so more years ago, I had the following two dreams:
1)
I am driving on a beach road with my Stepfather. I look in front of us and over a large bridge I see a tornado. We do a U-turn and end up running into the front lobby of a hotel.
2)
I am running toward my childhood home, and behind me is a huge tornado coming my way. SO I run to my house and there is a huge fence around it, so I ended up clinging to the fence. My childhood home was red brick, but in my dream it has been painted over white ( In Real Life: people living in the home painted the brick white).
3) This dream happened when I first started seeing my current T, after being terminated by previous T:
I see myself in the distance, and I am a werewolf howling to the full moon. Immediately, I am inside my childhood home, myself, I am in the kitchen looking at the island and on it are onions, like the kind you pick from your front yard as a child. The onions with the green stems were laying side by side in a row and I just looked at them. The roof was lower, and it was raining outside.
I had a difficult therapy session where I was triggered because I felt like T was ignoring me. I didn't want to feel that way. It was difficult and I went home. I was sitting thinking about session, and all of a sudden the three above dreams popped in to my head, one by one. I remembered that the first two I had on the same night, back when my Step dad was alive. Then the last dream, when I started seeing a new T.
I was awake when these three dreams showed up. It was like my collective unconscious sent me three emails.
I know that at the time I was under a tremendous amount of stress and was taking a lot of what T said negatively. A few weeks ago in therapy, I told T that I was thinking of my Stepdad a lot lately (who I absolutely loved).
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