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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
Idk how to advise you to build/improve those things but the fact that you do have EI/Empathy at some level is reflected in your posts. Your response about animals is just further evidence that you do have it. I think you're just tired of being hurt and rejected. I saw another post of yours where you came up with some solutions to some of the challenges facing you. Your posts show you growing and developing. That's great. You'll get there. I believe in you.  |
Thanks. It just takes so long to build these things and doing so is so overwhelming when I have so much else going on, you know?
It seems like about the only type of people that I mix with are other outcasts like myself. For example, I have a couple of acquaintances that I've met at school that are rather over the top:
One is this dude who makes his own death metal and is this anarchist who thinks that the government is plotting against him. He was in my government class and almost got in trouble for talking about the Illuminati and how they really run the government. The professor was all like "hey kid in the Disturbed shirt, what is an authoritarianism?" and he was all like "a government like the one we have now that wants to control everybody". If nothing else, he makes for some interesting conversation.
Another example is this dude who used to live in California as a medical cannabis dealer. He wants to learn web development because he thinks that cannabis should be legal everywhere and he wants to make web sites for activists who are trying to legalize it and he wants to work for a company that is into cannabis legalization to help them promote themselves via the internet.
I always have had a tendency to attract outcast type people in my life. I've been friends with a girl who is a self proclaimed vampire who likes to suck people's blood, a self proclaimed ninja who hides ninja weapons in his car and place to use against people who try to rob or harm him and wants to move to Japan to train in Ninjutsu, a guy who wants to be a professional race car driver and has an obsession with classy mafia type people and drives a Mercades, and a hacker who admitted to using a hack to cause a bully from his high school to catch their computer on fire and burn down most of his house.
Maybe one day, I will improve my ability to connect with people emotionally and find a girl that could love me for who I am. I just don't see that happening any time soon.
I guess I am an outcast at all and I should just mingle with my own kind.