I almost had a melt down. I was in hysterics.

Fortunately I was able to call a good crisis line in the US on skype and I lucked out with a kind person to talk to.

I have been mostly med free for the last seven years, but tonight I decided to get on lithium. I have about 2 weeks worth. In times like this 2 weeks of lithium will help a lot. I bought them in Greece after a brief talk with a local GP who did a house call. They only cost about 3 USD. I probably should consider getting more and staying with it. Wish me luck. I am madder than a Hatter.