I have literally no support from real relationships with regards to my mental health other than a long distance friend who I can talk to via social media. My family can't grasp what it is to struggle with mental health. It's "everyone gets anxious" or "we all get down from time to time".

Despite joining support groups, classes and volunteer work, I do not find anyone on my wavelength with whom I could become friends. It's like a desert.

I get what you're saying, therapy isn't everything but I have so much unresolved stuff that I can't process alone and I'm actually scared to jump down the rabbit hole without feeling like someone's with me, or I fear I might never get back out. A lot of this stuff I am unable to talk about with my friend even. How does one go about telling someone your own age, a grown adult, in certain situations feels like a child and has fantasies of sensual nature with potential "parent figures"? Embarrassing, right? I would even struggle discussing this with the most trusted of Ts.

When choosing a new T, aside from things like experience, qualifications, approach etc, what should I look for in terms of rapport? The Ts I chose previously I followed my gut feeling but ended up getting so attached, it was perhaps unhealthy but these were the Ts who I trusted the most and felt I could open up to. I chose the last 2 Ts knowing, perhaps purposely, that I wouldn't attach because I thought we would have a healthier relationship with more distance. However, both turned out to be unfruitful.

I know if I choose a T I will grow to feel close to it will be unhealthy but I will open up but if I choose a T I won't warm to, the opposite will be true. But what should a normal therapy relationship look like?