I HATE NEW YEARS EVE....

always have, always will.....bad bad memories for me....always end up at parties outside crying my eyes out.......

This year will be particularly emotional ...I know I should be positive about a new year/new start etc......but I hate the actual night itself....triggers me actually...supposed to be going to a party I feel so ill...glands up, head aches, back and neck aching.....

Just burst out crying and had a cuddle from my wonderful son.....

he said he will stay at home with me if I want......

I feel aggressive and moody and cant shake it off.....

...just wondered if anyone els felt like this......

Jin x