I feel the same way about the kind of music you mention. I'm female by the way, if that matters. I listen mainly to old punk music, and 80s thrash metal. That's what my dad listened to. He unfortunately passed away in May, which makes it hard to even listen to that music now without getting emotional. I'm like you in that I wish I couldn't feel emotions. But then I also couldn't write decent poetry, and that's basically been my lifesaving coping technique for years. No therapy helped me ever, except the therapy of words. But even my poetry is repulsive in subtle ways. I could never have a large group of readers. It is dark stuff, even if not overtly, being as my word choice is very precise. But I feel like I'm rambling now.