It was very traumatic for me, but i had no choice, no alternatives. I wasn't ready to leave theray with him. It felt traumatic for a few reasons, one was it felt like when i had to legally emancipate from my parents when i was in a crisis as a teen, the second was feeling worthless because he had no concern unless i had something to offer (money), third feeling ostracized, also the fact i am struggling with medical problems and the ptsd that goes with medical treatments, and needing him more than ever. Then the way he handled it. There are other things mixed in it all.

Not sure how or when i will recover. Im devastated over this.