Please moderators, don't move this! It does somewhat pertain to therapy.

So my sister had her baby today at 1:53am! I'm super excited for her. But I'm depressed as hell. She didn't tell me that she was born until 9pm tonight. It's too late to see her today, and I can't see her tomorrow morning. So we won't get to see the baby in the hospital. It sucks for my fiance because he can't go see them at their house. There's stairs and due to his disability, he can't do stairs. So he won't be able to hold the baby until whenever they bring her over to our house.

What also sucks is that everyone else in the family not only knew about the birth, but has already seen the baby. And they're posting it all over FB. And my mom or dad didn't tell me either.

On top of that, we helped my sister out so much financially with the baby. We probably spent about $5k. We bought furniture, bedding, clothes, diapers, toys, books, etc. They don't have a lot of money, my family doesn't have a lot of money, and his family and friends are...well... dumb. The oldest brother bought a kid's motorcycle instead of something useful for a baby. No one bought her bedding or bottles. They bought her genie diaper bags, but not the pail. She put a bouncy chair on her registry, they bought her 3! She put a diaper bag on her registry, they bought her 2! Etc, etc, etc. So we stepped up and got her everything she needed plus more. I have also made her 5 crocheted blankets.

I feel so forgotten. My heart is breaking. I tried to be a good sister. And she forgets to tell me that her daughter was born?!?!

We are having issues with my mom and stepdad, and now this. My fiance doesn't want any of my family at our wedding now!



I've already emailed and called my T for help, but she won't get back to me till minimum tomorrow. And I'll be getting a tattoo tomorrow afternoon (was planned months in advance), so I'll get my pain kick at least from that. I've also taken my Ativan, but it's been over an hour and I'm still crying. I might have to take another.

T said to me last week that people sometimes forget things when big events happen. (We were talking about ex-T forgetting me and how I felt like T forgot me). Maybe it's true, but it sucks. I've NEVER forgotten anyone important to me.

I'm still super depressed and don't know what to do. Everything is falling apart: my family, my wedding, my relationship with T...



Please don't criticise me right now. I don't need tough love. I'm looking for some empathy and support. Please! I really am not doing well and need support.