Well, I've had coffee, smoked a ton, treated myself to a few Oreos, and played for a few minutes on the computer. I'm trying to convince myself to take a bath. My dogs are helping. They've been cuddling with me because they know something is wrong.

I do have a crisis line number, but I don't like to use it. Some of the counselors are mean. If I'm not in danger, they'll shoo me off the phone to help someone else. Or they give horrible advice. I once had someone tell me to call a peer line, so I did. They told me my issue was too severe that I needed to call back the crisis line...