I hope you're feeling better today.

I've noticed in my life that there's something about taking care of others that makes me feel braver, and more in control. I was really scared to ride a roller coaster one time but then my niece was too short and had to ride in my car. She was nervous too. As soon as I started reassuring her I was like "we got this." I like rose to the occasion. One time I had to do an internship at a nursing home. I was afraid it would worsen my depression to see all the old people, but it actually made me feel so much better to help to cheer up others.

I'm new here but it sounds like you're kind of the person who goes around helping other people and encouraging them. That's a really noble position. Maybe that's your coping strategy. Even heroes get tired sometimes though. Maybe you're just tired.

Another one of my coping strategies is to rename my feelings. Like if I get really sad over someone's death. I say, "maybe this isn't sadness. maybe it's just love." and I realize that it could be either, but that love is a much kinder feeling to think you have and causes a lot less stress for me, because i stop thinking that I have some problem to fix and I just feel like a very loving person.

hope you find some relief