I want to say, first off, that I am very sorry for those of you who have not yet found the stability you need/want. Treating Bipolar I or any mental illness seems to be...I dunno...guess work, and that on a good day. Plus, clearly...a lot of non-medical factors go into (in)stability, also.

I'm now down to 20mgs/Abilify. I was on 30mgs forever. I've also been able to drop the Wellbutrin. That leaves me with 3 daily drugs: trileptal, lamictal, and abilify, plus as-needed gabapentin to use as a sleeping pill (happens very rarely, thank goodness).

I'm still doing my vitamin thing (Orthomolecular). Do the massive supplements help? I do think so, honestly. At this point, I'm up to 20 grams vitamin C per day. That's kind of high end for daily maintenance, but Linus Pauling was on 18 grams per day towards the end of his life. I took his intake and added 2 grams, to compensate for the psych drugs and tendency towards tension, etc.

Its interesting, how now that I'm not in crisis mode, I am on a reduced tranquilizer dose, etc...real life hits, at long last. Where to from here? What can I realistically do with my life, anyway? I am blessed to be on disability. I'm also blessed that I've reconciled with my parents, and they let me live here. I am an outcast in my community, so living with my parents is, for right now, the best option for me. I was literally driven out of an apartment in a nearby small city not too long ago. Not fun...not fun at all. :-(

Just thought I'd share a bit. Thanks. :-)