Furthermore I have embarked on a journey, with the help of my pDoc to cut back on meds. the life circumstances that drove me to her with depression have changed. Im in a much better place now. I have done hard work on personal growth, taking back my power, and standing up for what I want and need, and eliminating things are not helpful in my life.

I have a strong desire to cut back or even get completely off meds to find out who the real me is now. The side effects of meds are intolerable, brain fog, weight gain, type 2 diabetes, sluggish thyroid, akathesia, and on and on.

After I get to a place where these drugs are out of my system I may be ok and feel great. Or maybe i will find out that I do need med help. I'm willing to take that risk.