I was diagnosed as depressed decades ago. I would have long periods of "normality" and then something happened or for no reason at all got depressed. then I would go on antidepressants for a while, 3 to 6 months, feel better, and then wean off them. I would go a 3-5 years and then this would happen again. I was ok with this, it was working for me. I wasn't medicated all the time.

Fast forward a few decades and enter in a new Pdoc. She told me depression was "progressive" and that the only thing to do was stay on ADs forever. I believed her even though the frequency of my depressive episodes never increased over 40 years.

Now after 5 years on ADs I began to have hypomanic episodes. ADs can cause this in people were never manic before. So now I'm labeled bipolar with anxiety. Enter in Seroquel. I'm "psychotic" and need to take this. I don't consider occasional talkativeness and occasional bouts of anxiety as psychotic, but whatever. Enter in Xanax, oh goody now I'm addictive to Benzos. As a result of seroquel i have regained wieght and now have diabetes type 2 and have to take metformin. AND my cholesterol shot up...another effect of the meds.

I'm frustrated and want off this crazy train!