Thank you all for your suggestions, support and input - much appreciated!

I guess I am in fact grieving.... but I should remember that not all marriages are happy, which makes me feel badly for those suffering, but it is a reality - otherwise over 50% wouldn't divorce, and who knows how happy the rest truly are. I never want anyone to suffer though.

I could hide my married friends' posts on Facebook, but then I wouldn't see any posts, lol. That's most of them. I do need to remember that ppl on FB only show their happy pics and faces.

Sprout, I wouldn't be left with just awful men. It's that my past has been filled with awful men. :/ No use crying over spilled milk, though right? I just feel like I wasted a lot of valuable time. But yes, it's good I never let these jerks convince me to tie the knot, as Hoping pointed out.

I don't know why this is bugging me so much -- I guess seeing my friend's recent marriage right on the heels of the dissolution of my engagement just stings really badly. I am also facing the shame of its dissolution in front of all my FB friends that I announced it to only just four or five short months ago. It was a short engagement, which is just really embarrassing. I am sure they've figured out I am single again, as my status says as much and I haven't posted pics of us in over a month. SIGH. I don't know why I even care about this but I do.

I realize children are a mixed blessing too, but I never really wanted kids, so I'm OK with that. It's more so wanting a long-term partner to share my life with. I'm tired of just dating, and continuing to date in my late 40's. I know I shouldn't feel sorry for myself, and I sound like I am.. .I do have much to be grateful for. I guess it comes back to the grieving process.

Hoping mentioned focusing on my friends and the good times --- great suggestion! Thank you, I will try....