Thank you everyone for the support and responses. I really appreciate it.
I am feeling better. I went to the gym and it was a good idea.

Shazerac, I appreciate you saying that looking for validation all the time is not helpful, and that it will disappoint me. I know it is helpful to be more secure. I'm not sure what to say about that though. Sometimes I need validation. I think that's ok. It is good to know though, that I have the final say and thought in what I do, and how I feel and making decisions. When I ask my therapist what she thinks about something, sometimes, she has me say what I think first, because she wants me to validate myself. She wants me to not rely on others for validation either, and to rely on myself more, and use my intuition and trust myself.

Fuzzy, thank you. I'm not sure what to say about the group being unhealthy. I think the facilitator tried to make it safe for people, and was professional, but I was still uncomfortable, mainly, because I'd been triggered early on by a very angry and aggressive seeming group member. I did make the group facilitator and my therapist aware of my discomfort, and they were receptive. I think I just don't do group therapy well. I think...I'm depressed and anxious, and group really seemed to bring that out of me.

Thank you again everyone.