So the forever ending roller coaster with T.....T is suggesting to me, to take an even bigger leap of faith. To consider talking about the stuff, I have managed to avoid talking about.

Rationally, I know this is probably a good thing, just need to find a way of getting over the sheer terror.

I try to tell myself, that it will be ok. I practice saying it out loud in my head and then panic.

It all feels so ridiculous. I know I am safe, but can't shake those feelings.