Last night my ex-husband, who I have been seeing again for 6 months ended our relationship, again. Only two weeks ago he declared his undying love for me, told me I was all he needed and offered to go to a registry office and get married again. Now he says he can't handle a relationship and cannot offer me anything so I should get over him and move on. This turnaround has broken my heart.

Backstory; we both have BP and logically, due to the way it effects both of our lives, we cannot be together without destroying each other. We both love each other intensely but cannot get past this issue. He is right that we cannot be together but it was unfair of him to (probably manic) tell me I am the only one for him, he will always be there for me and we should get married then dump me 2 weeks later.

This has done my head in. I hardly slept last night and when I did I dreamt of him. This come on the back of a horror few days of severe, suicidal agitation caused by the introduction of Zoloft a week ago (I stopped it yesterday). Basically, it put me in a bad mixed state. I feel very fragile and have been IP almost seven weeks. I have one more week of TMS to do and if i am feeling better and safe can then go home. I just want to go home. This suffering has gone on too long. I don't know how much more I can take.