You cannot help what you feel but time (did he recently leave?) will hopefully give you more perspective and help you accept more. I regret some of the things I have said about my H on here because he is a lovely person. It is always best not to speak negatively of others but our arguments are due to different POVs and desires. Do you think something like this caused your breakup? Sometimes we want different things and resolving differences with a determined, strong willed man can be excruciating--or even impossible. Was your bf like this or was it something else? Like Fuzzy said--I don't know your story but perhaps you really listened but simply disagreed? Even in this post you are saying "think I love" and "don't want to be alive to cause anymore pain." Please try not to do something crazy. Get help if you think you might. Of course cry a little if you can. It is so hard when a bf leaves. Romantic breakups are about as emotional as it gets. Hugs.