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Originally Posted by SoupDragon
So the forever ending roller coaster with T.....T is suggesting to me, to take an even bigger leap of faith. To consider talking about the stuff, I have managed to avoid talking about.
Rationally, I know this is probably a good thing, just need to find a way of getting over the sheer terror.
I try to tell myself, that it will be ok. I practice saying it out loud in my head and then panic.
It all feels so ridiculous. I know I am safe, but can't shake those feelings.
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So you are going to keep seeing the T? Oooo talking about trauma is hard. Not sure if you read anything on my PE Therapy post but it was quiet the experience for me. It was very hard to talk about it, eyes closed, telling the story in detail, to a stranger. I think having my eyes closed helped though so I wouldn't be looking for a reaction from the T. If I had seen she was shocked, or crying or something I may have stopped talking about it. Telling this story was being recorded on my own recorder. And I had to listen to it once daily. It did get easier to listen to, but that was partly because I was emotionally numbing while listening to it. I only really connected to it when I had my eyes closed telling the story in detail, very detail. My point is maybe you could try that. Tell about the trauma in your own safe place and record it. Maybe that would make it easier to talk about it later. It will be hard, but it's also be a big accomplishment when you are done.
