I get you. I'm at this age and divorced early this year, the most free I've ever been and also most lonely person I've ever known. I'm slowly starting to make friends through yoga classes but I have been hurt by so many before that my level of trust for people is very low. When I met people, I try to be open and listen and understand them, but my mind sets to wandering and wondering, and I feel this gut feeling of "they're only being nice. Move on." So, I do. I probably shouldn't trust myself but should instead learn to interact more. Funny thing is, I can interact with women better than men (they're usually smarter and smell nicer to), but only if I know there's no chance ever of romantic involvement. Don't get me started on that subject.