I don't know if it's just that I've got my sleep hours backwards, but I've never slept this much. I try to motivate myself to get up in the daytime and get out, but I can't even get dressed most of the time. I feel like crap being inside all the time, and I miss my animals (my boyfriend feeds them when I'm this down). I sleep much of the time and mess on my phone when I'm up, usually at night. I don't want to sleep like this. I want to cry, but I can't. I want to run away, but I don't have the money, and I want to take my stuff with me. All I want right now is the trash gone, and I can't do it myself. I can handle exposure when I'm not overwhelmed, but I can't like this. I don't know why I'm posting this. Everyone says the same thing, but they're not in my shoes or my head. My sister's in the hospital with pneumonia and a bunch of other problems, so I'm worried about her, too. I hate myself. I wish someone could make me feel better.