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Originally Posted by Trace14
So you are going to keep seeing the T? Oooo talking about trauma is hard. Not sure if you read anything on my PE Therapy post but it was quiet the experience for me. It was very hard to talk about it, eyes closed, telling the story in detail, to a stranger. I think having my eyes closed helped though so I wouldn't be looking for a reaction from the T. If I had seen she was shocked, or crying or something I may have stopped talking about it. Telling this story was being recorded on my own recorder. And I had to listen to it once daily. It did get easier to listen to, but that was partly because I was emotionally numbing while listening to it. I only really connected to it when I had my eyes closed telling the story in detail, very detail. My point is maybe you could try that. Tell about the trauma in your own safe place and record it. Maybe that would make it easier to talk about it later. It will be hard, but it's also be a big accomplishment when you are done.  |
Thanks Trace. That sounds really hard to do, I think you are very brave. Was it worth it for you? Are you glad that you did it?
I can see it as an accomplishment, being able to talk about something so difficult, but did it make a positive difference to you.
I hate heights and a couple of years ago, I did a high rope tree climb thing with my kids. There was one part where you had to step across a largish gap, with nothing underneath you. I was terrified and froze and really thought they would have to rescue me. Eventually I was able to do it. That was a huge accomplishment for me, but I would never do it again and don't think I gained anything from it, other than confirming my fear of heights.
So I get that it is a really brave thing to do, in talking about things, but what if it doesn't help?
Maybe there isn't an answer to that, I suppose I am just scared of making things worse for myself and rather than just feeling shame myself about those things, will also feel shame that there is now someone else that knows.