Thread: Being Alone
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Old Sep 06, 2017, 12:19 AM
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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote View Post
Due to fatigue, chronic pain and depression, I can get into isolating for long periods of time. Very long periods of time. I've come out of some of these lengthy periods of isolation to realize certain people are very angry, so angry they vow they will never see me again. In other words, they take my isolation as rejection of them. Something for me to consider, of course.

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WC
I've had the same thing happen to me over the past year, regarding people being upset with me because I'd isolated myself during a period of severe depression. However, it is me presuming that they were upset because when I did step from that depression-darkness and tried re-establishing connection, I was wholly ignored...on multiple occasions and still am to this day so I don't really know why I've been ignored. In truth, I suppose that they themselves could be going through a period of some form of extreme challenge or difficulty, which in turn obstructs social interaction.

In the distant past, think 10-15 years ago, when I'd find myself in a state of solitude it wasn't because I was dealing with the extreme of depression, but because I'd simply just be doing things on my own. During those years there weren't the precipitates, permanently severing relationships with me or drastically altering interaction with me by way of seemingly morphing our relationship from friends to acquaintances, which is seemingly what is happening presently.

These days, I sometimes repeat the thought: "We aren't friends and we aren't absolute strangers; we simply share memories of interaction and affection from the past...nothing more."

I don't really know why I let these types of losses bother me when it apparently doesn't bother the people whom I've lost. I also get that I shouldn't let my experience be diminished or influenced in some sort of reactionary way to others, but it seems that I care about things(i.e. friendships) that are just nonsensical.
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