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Originally Posted by Bjørnen
You most certainly aren't losing your mind. Oh gosh, I remember thinking that too! "Is this just how my life is going to be now? Am I slipping away more each night?? How many months has it been now??"
I feel like accepting that my brain is wired that way has made it a little easier and less common, but I also don't like it when I'm told to "just accept it", as if it's as simple as flipping a switch. I know it's not that simple.  |
When I first started feeling this way I repeatedly asked my boyfriend those questions- "Is my life over?" "Is this feeling going to last forever?" "Is this who I am now?" It was an all consuming thought that just paralyzed me with fear.
Now that I have been generally doing a bit better it has turned into "Ok but how long will I feel ok before I feel bad again?" "Am I really happy?" It's now a fear that I will slip back into that mindset again, because I genuinely have never felt as poorly as I have the last couple of months.
I am a fighter though, and I know this is a temporary thing and that is why I am trying to just take things a day at a time. Mornings and nights just seem to be the worst