I hope you did feel better getting this out. Maybe change whom you are around? If you are of adult age, you have every right to move on to a new stage in yourself, a better life away from this. Cliche or not, the only person you can change is you. If you're doing what you know is right, don't worry about them.
As for suicide, I don't believe that solves anything even though the thoughts to do so are still very present within myself. I believe we advance as a universe only as the beings within the universe advance their lives and ways of thinking. If I kill myself, I set the universe back another step, and it would be wrong for everything.
I hope you can get to a better place, and find safety and peace