Thank you and good question! Why do I want to be married? I am just tired of the dating scene and heartaches. I am tired of the drill...

I've been dating for nearly three decades now. It's tiresome getting hopeful with someone then having that fall to pieces, over and over again. I just want someone long-term, it doesn't even really have to be a marriage, but a committed, lifelong relationship. I want to grow old with someone, have adventures and memories. I want what everyone else around me has. I feel I am missing out and it makes me feel like the odd ball in life. And I know it's not everything in life or all that it's cracked out to be. I know marriage can be hard and takes work and compromise. But I am ready for that now.

If it doesn't work out with my ex fiance, I may give up altogether. I cannot face the dating scene again.. I just can't keep going through this. As I write that, tears are streaming down my face. I guess this is really a big issue for me.