Hello (((Helpme))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. Do you have a therapist that you can call for support during this time of need? Thre is a hotline number for the United States 1-800-273-TALK, if you would like to talk to someone in person. Calling a friend to come over and get you into another environment for a while may help you feel less stressed and alone. Take care Helpme. Soidhonia