I'm so sorry for your experience with your mother. ***Hugs**** You're not being rebellious, you are protecting yourself, which is only natural. This is a good thing and is healthy in my opinion. Honestly, I would do the same thing... distance myself from her emotionally and physically. She sounds cruel, unfair and selfish. Her words to you as a child are unacceptable to say to your own child. How horrible. It angers me that she said that to you and it's maddening that she treats you differently than your sister. This is not your fault whatsoever, it's a malfunction of your mother's. Perhaps she was overwhelmed by two kids, and as a result, you got the short end of the stick, but that again, is not your fault. None of this is your fault.... please don't think any of it is. Your mom sounds a bit sick to me. Emotional distance is healthiest, and I would just keep her at arms length. ((((((more hugs))))