Yesterday in therapy, I was admitting some of my jealousy issues about the other clients and he asked me if I often fear being replaced? I never though of it like that but it makes sense so I was like, yes! it happens to me often....

He wrote a note for next time as we were ending but I got home and begin thinking how true this really is....

A few examples... my former best friend "replaced" me with the guy she married, they ended up doing everything we used to do when they dated and our friendship died.

a guy I used to be close friends with "replaced" me by befriending my enemy at the time.

a neighbor I was closed to "replaced" me with the new people in the area with dogs....

now I am terrified of my therapist 'replacing me" with the new client who is getting a dog down the road, right now I am the only client who brings a dog and it has been a huge bonding thing for us.

He also said when I asked if all his clients feel attached, yes to some degree but basically indicated due to my lack of support outside the office, I am the one who seems to have it the most.... which makes me feel nuts.

Anyway a lot of rambling....

I am just wondering if anyone else has this issue and what can I do? should i just insist we talk about it more? I feel so stupid knowing I never realized this and its probably why I refuse to get close to ppl in life and why being close to my therapist scares me beyond words.