I am truly sorry for you. There are a lot of things you're dealing with that I go through myself: I have been bullied since I was a child, too,my only friends left me without telling the reason, I barely have any friends left now, I have skin picking disorder too and just hate my face (and body) because it looks horrible. I don't excercise or go out because I have no one to go out with or I have no motivation or life energy for that. I have a lot of trouble with my family lately. I wouldn't even say we're a family anymore. It is like everyone hates each other. I can't talk to my parents about my problems because they wouldn't take it serious. And the worst thing for me is that even if other people don't think I am lazy (because they don't know enough) I know that I actually am lazy and do nothing in my life anymore. I am just overwhelmed with the smallest task and seem to be incapable of anything. I feel completely worthless even if others don't see me like this yet.
I understand how you must feel, and how frustrating it must be for you. I didn't loose a parent yet, and there are no words to express how horrible this must be, especially when you have no oneto talk to. But I want to tell you: in view of all those things you are going through and the fact that you still always try to do better for others and to give the most you can, I think you are a truly strong person. I admire you for this and I think it is deeply unfair that you have to deal with all of this. You definitely do not deserve this and I hope you can get out of this and get the life, support and love you truly deserve.