Sorry you are struggling with this. Just for the record, you do not HAVE to love your mom. Perhaps you do, but don't beat yourself up and feel guilty if you don't feel it.
My mom is an alcoholic and was sexually abused as as child. She is really damaged, in denial, and has never sought treatment. I could write a book about all the horrible, hateful things she has said to me over the years. She's 78 years old now. There are days I hate her guts and other days I love her despite her behaviors. It's pretty confusing.
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Bipolar type 2 rapid cycling DX 2013 -
Seroquel 100
Celexa 20 mg
Xanax .5 mg prn
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