Huzzah my eye is fine. No eye herpes which is what I was worried about. Nothing looked abnormal and the pressure was fine. Still don't need to get glasses.

Jennifer 1967 - I'm so sick of the drs and all the tests. blah. maybe one day I'll be healthy.

bluebicycle - would the GI allergies make my nose run? Some days it never stops. I'm also itchy most of the time. As for therapists, idk sometimes something feels off at first and I HATE going over my whole life story every time. This time I made it clear I just wanted to learn DBT so that's what we've been working on so he does most of the talking. It's funny though, I'll be staring at my shoes and he'll ask me what i'm thinking about and I'll say nothing cause i'm literally thinking about nothing. lol I mean I have no reason not to trust him. the t goes to my church so i know at least some of our ideas about life are the same. I go to a unitarian universalist church.

Shezerac - I'm on 8 psych meds, who knows which one is doing what haha. I've been on most of them since 2010/2011 so i think it'd be weird to just get side effects now. But who knows.

still_crazy- i don't think i need a new therapist, just need to get used to this one. It's been years since I had a male therapist. Not saying that male therapists are bad but they have a different way of going about things. Maybe too straightforward? idk.

Wild Coyote- idk if it's a celtic dragon. I just went searching for a gold dragon cause it's what Moreta rode in the book "Moreta: Dragonlady of Pern" by anne mccaffery. I find listening to classic rock helps my brain for some weird reason and makes life not feel so ******. Helps me get through the day most of the time. But yeah the whole hour by hour thing, totally there sometimes.

Now onto chilling until t appt tomorrow. I already emailed him what i want to talk about cause i'll forget. Always nice to have swiss cheese memory from meds