Heidu, I'm sorry you're having a lousy weekend. It's a holiday weekend in the states and I'm not doing anything either. My husband went out of town to see his sick dad so I'm alone on top of it. I'm okay with it, though. I'll find something to do that makes me happy.

I've never had many friends, especially at one time. For some reason it's always been one at a time. The spirit still moves me once in a while and I want to "go out and have fun!!" Don't ask me what "fun" would be, though! LOL It can get quite frustrating!

Don't want to preach at you, but something you said caught my eye: I know she doesn't mean to make me feel like this but she does. Hun, did you know it's your choice how you feel? Your friends shouldn't have the power to make you feel anything! It's a real toughy but you can gain control of your feelings regardless of what anyone around you does.

Here I am talking and I've never done this, but how long have you tried to become one of the group with your friends? If you haven't extended invitations very much, perhaps you could keep doing it for a while. Maybe they would keep you further in the front of their mind and remember to invite you more often. You could also try being a bit more assertive and come right out and tell them, "I would like to go (or do that) next time!" and give them a big smile!

If that doesn't work, then find something that you really like to do, maybe with your hands? Cheat and tell yourself that you are going to celebrate (even if you don't have anything to celebrate) by doing it. It works for me!


<font color=blue>This above all: To thine own self be true. --Shakespeare</font color=blue>