Rayne-
I am so upset and hurt. I just can't imagine lasting until next week. It is SOOOOOOO painful and I am oscillating between hurt and anger. No, I just see him once a week. I don't want to be in this pain, I don't want to care.

No, this T isn't the one from 8 years ago, although we talked about him today. We talked about how many people get to do whatever they want to people and just walk through the raindrops. If someone was more important than I, there would be consequences. It doesn't matter that I'm in pain. I'm such a big baby and I Feel so embarrassed. I texted him what am i supposed to do with these emotions? He usually texts me back but I'm not sure if he will this time or not. I deserve this.

I'm not usually so histrionic. I am dealing with somethings at home that I for some stupid reason didn't tell T.