Oh, no, I meant if you were talking about that T, it could stir up the self-hate and other crappy feelings that you felt from that experience back then.

It will go away, though it seems unimaginable. I get really keyed up too...it's the worst. It always helped when T was soothing, but he hardly ever was like that. If your T was tired or stressed, maybe from getting back from vacation, perhaps he wasn't present enough for you.

Still, talking about Traumatic T might have triggered this state since you said you are usually not that histrionic.Oh, I just saw you said you're dealing with something outside of therapy. Maybe you could bring it up next week?

You'll make it through. It will pass. Do you have a pet or stuffed animal to cuddle with? I heard weighted blankets can be soothing and thought of getting one someday.