No on the nudist colony; doing it where allowed is not a part of the "untypical urge". And I don't think trying to satisfy any of these urges with a watered down version would be a good idea; it would be more like accepting than rejecting and I want to reject them. I want to not have the urges instead of resisting and resisting. And why are social taboos rules I have to remember instead of things that bother me? I don't expect an answer; it is just more of my untypical thinking. It bothers me that I upset people by violating them; I am not unfeeling by a long stretch.