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Deez back in 1972, I was supjected to beatings, knifings, and mental abuse that you wouldn't believe possible, the fact that I 'am still alive and breathing is a success story, time heals some wounds, mental wounds take longer

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I don't doubt it for a second, and I agree that it's a near miracle that someone could still be alive after going through all that, but my point is that my story is nothing like that.

Here's what happened to me: I was tumbling around in my back yard while celebrating with some friends, I hit my head, I got back up, and that was it. The PTSD didn't get really bad until about a year and a half later (though the first 18 months were no cakewalk), but from that point forward I've been unable to see my friends, to have a drink, to go out and be social with people, or even to talk to my friends on the phone. It's not miraculous that I survived the trauma my body encountered, if anything it's astonishing that such a minor, seemingly insignificant event could absolutely destroy my life the way it has.

So that's how you and I are different. I absolutely commend you for being so strong, and for having the fortitude to survive everything that you've been through, but the mindset that you have grown in response to everything that you've overcome is not one that's going to work for me. I just want this stupid moment in time out of my body. I want to be able to have friends again. I want to live a life that's worth living again. I will accept nothing less.