Bjornen, I love your posts specially if they are long. I dont join volunteer work coz I know I am not stable enough and struggling with my own depression and won't be able to keep the commitment. But you didn't even start it and like you said you were not on any schedule. So you should not feel guilty. Your health issues are also imp, i know how difficult it is to take up a responsibility when you are unwell yourself. So please don't feel bad. Hugs to you.