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Originally Posted by eclairparty98
Hello, Desiree2006  It sounds like you're going through a rough time, at the moment.  As for the patience, I truly believe this!! It's not going to be easy for anyone on this journey. We're all in on this together  Imagine losing weight -- you can't just try one diet for one week and expect a massive change. It takes a while before things change. You must not give up hope 
What you say about the grocery store, shopping and dreading a shower, I understand all too much!! It's getting to the point where I don't want to eat which is really unusual for me. I've stopped eating large quantities of food in meals, not because I don't want to, but because my appetite has almost completely disappeared. When hungry, I'm provided with food but actually eating feels miserable and tedious and then I feel like I'm going to be sick.
A few years ago when I was on anti-depressants, I experienced a lot of hunger as a side affect (I think) so I was constantly eating. I don't take any meds anymore simply because they don't seem to work for me. Sometimes I find it easy to eat as a pass time but doing that worsens my mood and I truly can't be bothered. It feels like colossal laziness, which it might be, but it's something that's totally hit me like a ton of bricks having formerly been quite active.
As for coping/dealing with things, I really found hiking to be of great benefit!! I can't recommend it enough!  This used to be something I did every day to pre-occupy my mind from everything BUT I can't hike ATM. I suggest you try it, particularly on a nice day at a quiet time Perhaps in the morning during sunrise or in the evening during the sunset? The colours in the sky are so beautiful, they alone could potentially bring some tranquility |
I'm having the same feelings towards eating, just feels like a tedious task and I can barely finish half the portions that I used to eat just a couple of months ago. My appetite is so little most of the time and I get full so quickly. Do our stomachs really shrink if we regularly eat less? I feel like mine has.
Showering, cleaning the house or even just going to the store have become impossible tasks for me. I'd rather not eat than have to go to the store. My bf shops all the time, so I don't have to starve thanks to him, but even that he's always buying food, too many times I just don't feel like eating and have lost a ton of weight. I think we just have no drive or motivation to do these things because we're so deep into our depression.