1st session back tomorrow morning and I'm in a complete state. The holidays have been bad and I am seriously questioning what benefits my therapy has been bringing me. For a while now it seems to be bringing me nothing but suffering and heart ache. I don't even know how on earth I'm going to bring this up with him tomorrow. I feel sick at the thought. My ET has been going on for years now and I think I'm reaching my limit for suffering... I just don't think I can leave.