LOL. Thank you for all the affirmations, WC. Not trying to contradict you, but I am far from perfect. I struggle with so many things day-to-day, but I think God has given me the grace to overcome most of them. I can present a good face, but in the background I feel like there are so many things I have going on. To be honest, I almost feel like two different people; the one I present to the world, and the one that lives in my head.

My ultimate goal is to align the two and present to the world the person that is going on behind the scenes. Or to get the behind the scenes guy to line up with the image I present to the world.

I do however, feel very blessed to be on a stable combo of meds. Even if I do feel a bit flat, hopefully all it will take to rectify that is a tweaking of my medication. I do deal with apathy, but if that's the worst it gets then I'm willing to accept it as the price paid to live with this disease. My wife has said how wonderful it is to live with me this way, as opposed to living with someone whose emotions she doesn't know from one minute to the next.

Thanks again for all the compliments, it means a lot. I don't feel worthy to accept them all, but you've blessed me by saying what you did.

My heart goes out to you as you deal with both your physical and emotional struggles. I hope soon you can find a place of peace and contentment.