I'm so depressed today. My 36 year old son is bipolar and has lived with us as an adult for more than 10 years. He has only deteriorated in that time. Especially since 2012 when his granddad died. He also has addiction issues that have gotten worse since then as well. We never know if he's high or manic. We don't know if he's depressed or drunk. It just gets harder and harder and we can never be certain there are no drugs or alcohol involved in his moods.
He can be sweet and funny. But we usually see him angry, defensive and unable to hear criticism, or understand our concerns. He seems unable to understand what his dad and I have to deal with and expects things to continue as they have been.
I'm 56, retired on disability due to MS. Husband is 66, retired and has a number of health concerns which have only increased in the last 5 years.
We want our lives back, but certainly can't kick son to the curb. I know there are no answers, but this is why there are so many mentally ill people on the street: their families can't take it any more. We are hovering on the edge.
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