hi Hun, it doesn't seem like the care providers in your area are helping you enough, at least not without additional support. I may have suggested this before, maybe try posting a bit more on pc, I have to survive one day at a time and it's not what I hoped for. But I haven't given up hope that things might somehow "get better" ... trust is a huge issue for me.

If some days are a little better for you, maybe try something new, it could be something very small. I believe in you and I'm thinking of you