thanks, elsamars.

im thankful for my parents. its...interesting. i was definitely state mental hospital material for a good, long, while...and i was labeled a "loser." now, by a --miracle-- , ive "recovered," to use mental health-speak. result? I'm --now-- labeled "Schizophrenic."

there's a lot of power in labels, especially from mental health, inc. in my case, docs at a private, for profit hospital figured they'd bilked the insurance company about as much as they could, so...that was that, for me. i was not even 21 years old then.

now, my current counselor says i was 'sick' from a young age, for a long time. i dont have much faith in 'treatment' now, but i do like this dude. the tranquilizer helps, a whole lot. that's another blessing.