I can relate to many of the things you've mentioned.....if I were doing better I'd highlight them just so you know you are not alone in feeling like this and that it will likely pass as it has for me. Well, I still battle some of the things you mentioned but they do not consume me like they do when unwell. Medication helps me most I think.....plus time and talking to people I trust. I'm so, so very sorry for what you are dealing with and I hope you find a solution soon. (((Hugs)))