Wow thanks a million golden_eve!!! I just about cried when I saw that lovely reply from you. I have beaten myself over the head constantly this past year so I felt a breath of fresh air for the first time in a few months! I am currently seeing a therapist and developing new strategies, particularly to overcome clinginess in my friendships, self-esteem issues and open my heart to all backgrounds and opinions, and its already having a positive impact! I hope you know how much you and your encouragement means to me. And just to clarify, my main friend group that I spent time with these past few years consisted of many people who were very touchy about the subjects of dating and coed interactions, or made excuses not to date me, as if my female friends thought I was a heathen who mistreated women and that every guy was just rotten, and that's the response that I seemed to get every time when asking for a date. It's all really confusing But for sure I'll focus on all my positive traits you brought to light to encourage new growth! Hugs back