i know i should remember it. its just like whenever i get mad like that i just blank. i try, i really do and i have gotten better. i guess i just expect the quick fix from growing up in the 90's lol. im a digital generation or whatever the hell they call us kids now a days. lol. im also the kind of person who works out for a month, doesnt see instant results and then quits lol.

echoes - ive never thought about it that way.

y'know, when i used to meditate i was a lot calmer. i know what im supposed to do, its just harder to say than do, like you said. i just didnt realize it would take THIS much practice! lol. thanks for listening you guys (and for responding)