So glad it worked for you. I understand your concern about addictions. You just have to be deliberate in using it responsibly. I've taken Xanax or Klonopin or Valium everyday for years for anxiety and haven't had any addiction problems (I guess every individual varies). Interestingly, since I started taking Abilify and stopped using caffeine, I haven't needed the benzos for several days now.

I hope you'll use Ativan as you need when you're feeling that way. You could talk to your pdoc about your addiction concerns. I also hope you are feeling better. Sending big hugs.